Over the past weeks since my separation I have had many lows. Each time I try to rally and tell myself that I will be stronger when this is all over. I don't believe that any more. I keep trying to reach out in subtle and sometimes not so subtle ways to tell people I need help dealing with this terrible turn of events. I am a social worker. In some small way I help people everyday try to deal with what is going on in their lives. I wish I could do the same for myself. I have hit another low and I have no one to depend on. My husband, who I once thought was a god placed on earth just for me, has abandoned me- body and soul. His cruelty knows no bounds. I think he is proud of what he has reduced me to.
My spirit has withered away. I see no real purpose in life. The sad thing is that no one even reads my blog. This is all meaningless.
